I feel really bad that I started my blog and then stopped so abruptly, but at the time I had no idea why. It took me some time to figure it out and I finally had that light-bulb moment this morning. My declaration about how I was going to create a list of tips on how to create and write characters with mental health issues was so large in scope that I think I scared myself.
Who am I to tell people how to write characters about mental health issues? I am a fraud, and no one should listen to me, I am no expert.
So, I put it off. After compiling all the research about what others had said and identifying what I thought was important, I just couldn’t bring myself to actually sit down and write it out. The effort I had put in wasted.
Whilst I still feel the same fraudulent emotions, I am trying to frame it to myself differently. For the podcast I have now read 36 books varying from fiction, memoirs to self-help. Not to mention all the other books I have devoured, which I have to admit I have lost count (what can I say I like books). I still don’t think I can ever consider myself an expert I need to read more! But, is there something I can offer myself or others? In reality all I have is my own opinion, my likes and dislikes and nothing more.
So, that is what I intend to write about. Tomorrow I will post my personal preferences, my own ideas on how to write such characters because after all I think I do have something to contribute as I talk about it on the podcast what can’t I write about it.
Please forgive me if you have been waiting to see this (although I am not sure anyone is reading this stuff and to be honest I probably would do it anyway if it is just for me). But, due to my nature I feel an overwhelming need to apologise. If not to real people but to myself. I promise this post is on the way. Hopefully this will be the first of many, the kick up the backside I need to actually get on with it and write about the things I find important.
I have had a case of the green-eyed monster with how prolific Becky has been at posting on her brand-new blog. I don’t want to feel this unwelcome sensation of guilt and shame that I am failing myself.
So, I am back and will hopefully be writing about stuff I find interesting. After all, how can I figure out who I really am if I don’t explore things that interest me!